Hey there, friends! Long time, no post.
If you’ve been around for a while, you know that Totally Mental has been on hiatus for about a year. *monkey covering eyes emoji*
I have lots of reasons (excuses) I told myself for why I didn’t write a blog post for 365 days, but they really don’t matter. All that matters is that I didn’t do it.
Staying motivated is hard. I struggle to do the important things, and I’ve been trying to figure out why. I work from home and have ample time to work on my blog. But instead, I make myself busy with mindless house chores and tedious tasks because they don’t actually matter. There’s no pressure in cleaning the bathroom, no one can judge me when I’m folding laundry in my own home.
I was hiding.
I have an idea in my head of what this blog should be, and the truth is it will never be that. At least not right away. But instead of just getting started and allowing the blog to be imperfect, I decided not to do it at all.
I told myself I would start posting again when it was ready, when it was perfect.
I switched from Wix to WordPress and from there it all went downhill. I tried to set it up myself for a whole year. I got so frustrated because I couldn’t get it to look how I wanted so I just gave up. Then, a month later, I’d get a brief wave of motivation and try again, only to get frustrated all over again.
I honestly have no excuse for my year of absence beside fear of failure, a lack of motivation, and being stubborn trying to do it all myself.
I finally got so frustrated I decided to just pay someone set up the freaking sidebar for me. And now, thanks to Carrie, the design is beautiful and sorted out. I have no more excuses.
I could take another year to work on the perfect first post. I could read up on how to formulate a successful blog post or I can just write it and hit send. If I don’t do it now, I’m honestly not sure I ever will.